A Lie From Day One

“Ma’am, excuse me but I don’t think you filled this out correctly,” the black-haired gentleman with glasses of the same color called out to me as I sauntered away from the counter.

Crap. Now what? My faced turned habanera pepper red.

I slung my purse back up over my shoulder and took two steps backwards.

I hadn’t renewed my driver’s license for ages. Not since they changed the renewal period to eight years. Eight years is a long time to hang on to a piece of plastic. And eight years is a long time to look at a less-than-desirable mug shot. After all, my hair was flat that day. And I never knew that my smile was crooked. Yes, literally, crooked.

Hmmm … I thought I had filled out the renewal form correctly.

Eyes – hazel. Check.

Hair – black. Well, L’Oreal black #4D, but they didn’t need to know that. Check.

Address – yup, that’s still the same. Check.

Weight – well, hello – that’s been a lie since day one, but nobody cares, right?

Oh, my gosh! I’m busted. My face quickly turned from red to white. My mug shot would be plastered in every post office in the tri-state area. I quickly looked for the exit door – so I could bolt out and disappear. Mr. Black-rimmed glasses was going to call me on my weight.

He peered at me through the Coke-bottle lenses. I looked at him, the word GUILTY plastered across my forehead, bracing myself for the condemnation.

“Ma’am, you didn’t write your social in this box.”

“Oops, I didn’t even see that box,” I replied very nonchalantly while my insides jumped up and down shouting 'whew'!

I quickly scribbled the nine digits inside the allotted space and hopped on over to the camera. This was the moment that I’d prepped all morning for – blow drying, straightening, painting on my face. After all, I would have to look at this picture for the next eight years.

A gray-haired lady stood behind the camera. Dressed in a blue flowered dress that was regurgitated from the seventies, she looked as old as my grandma. After all in driver’s license years, I was only about 7. All she had to do was push the button on the digital camera. I guess it couldn’t be any harder than it was for me to use my cell phone for texting.

“Stand on the blue box,” she barked. I looked up, licked my lips to give them a quick shine and faced the camera.

Click. Flash. Done.

My new driver’s license would be good for the next eight years. My hair was black – L’Oreal Black #4d. My eyes were still hazel. My smile was still crooked.

And my weight hadn’t changed at all. A lie from day one.

“Enjoy your birthday,” Mr. Black-rimmed glasses said.

I smiled, shoving my new license into my wallet. “Thanks, I will.”

The Dishes Will Wait

From time to time a downpour of rain falls from the sky, spattering itself over the edge of the roof, down the porch post and onto the ground below. The rain is a blessing from heaven – providing much-needed nourishment for the spring flowers and a mandatory rest period for the farmers who have been working long hours to get the crops in.

Everyone gets a break.

Except those of us who have been working inside.

(Me, for example.)

I’ve been spending the past fourteen weeks taking an on-line writing class. It’s been a big help with my ongoing project – my book. This endeavor began in 2007. And continues today. No, it’s not that long of a book – it’s just taking me that long.

Because I have to live my life alongside the writing.

My next class begins on May 9th – and goes for twelve weeks.

So my blog posts will continue to be sacrificed. My apologies to those of you who have begged for something new to read.

In the meantime, please click on a couple of the other blog links I have posted right below the picture of the little red tree.

Those who know me well know how important I feel about educating everyone about traumatic brain injury. Visit the blog “My TBI Life” and read about a woman who suffered a TBI after she was kicked in the head by a horse. Her remarkable recovery is inspirational.

Click on “The Dust Will Wait” and meet Pamela, who is a great writer and also a great photographer. The stories about her family will entertain you and touch your heart.

And for those who are interested in parenting, please visit “Pass the Torch” (it's author is the woman who got me started writing) and “My Cup 2 Yours”. Their stories of raising children, homeschooling adventures and empowering youth will enlighten you.

Dig into their archives for some awesome reading.

Until I’m done with my book….the dishes will wait.

Two Minutes of Tears ... Every Two Days

He would be the first to say he hates living here. After all, he’s an adult. And out of work. And squished into the bedroom in the basement. Most of his stuff is packed in storage. He has had to share the kitchen with us. And the sofa. And our car. For the last six months.

The shower isn’t his either – it’s filled with girl stuff – fruity shampoo and conditioner and perfumed body wash. He stands outside the bathroom door, patiently waiting for his sister to come out. The pink razor pushes his soap off the shelf in the tub, and it slides down the river of bubbles towards the drain.

I would be the first to say I hate having him here. After all, he’s an adult. And out of work. And his stuff is all over the basement. And the kitchen. And the sofa. And the car. For the last six months.

But I don’t hate having him here. I just hate the fact that he had to be here.

And now I hate the fact that he’s leaving.

And most of the time I can take it.

Most of the time.

Except for that time where I cry two minutes of tears … every two days.

Because he’s leaving. And because he’s been through so much. And because I wonder when it will end. And when the door will be opened for him.

The door to success and happiness.

My dear aunt once told me, “Let go and let God”. What comforting wisdom. You have to assume that you’ve given all the advice you can give, you’ve given all the tools for living. You have to let go and let God.

And yes, there are occasional tears as you think of the distance. That time when you cry two minutes of tears … every two days.